Wednesday, January 30, 2013

not really Wordless Wednesday: 2:00am Logic

If the juice box straw breaks at 2:00am the logical thing to do is
to get a fork to bust the hole because, after all, the straw is broken
and apparently rendered completely useless even to still stab 
the box open.  Yet you feel like a genius because you didn't
try to cut it open this time, spilling half of it, sugarizing everything.

MUST you break at 2:00am?



Saturday, January 26, 2013

Sweet Baby


grown girl
independent full of life
never complaining
the ugly card dealt

responsible
staying healthy
staying safe
never complaining

thousands of pokes
night and day
never complaining
day and night

stealing in the dark
beautiful girl sleeping
hold a hand ready a finger
routine

noooo, mommy

the sound catches my heart
compressed with nostalgia and heartbreak
the voice of a precious
innocent five year old baby

a tired voice
deep from the soul
all trusting with wonder
the protector inflicting

noooo, mommy

petting a troubled brow
gulping tears I'm sorry
shhh, all done
sleep sweet baby

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

48+ things about me

Cherise at DSMA shared 48 things about herself.

I'm in.

1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
not that I know of

2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
this morning

3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
sometimes - why is it different on different days?

4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
turkey

5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS?
yes, two daughters

6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
only if I had the patience to get to know that withdrawn, shy, socially awkward girl

7. DO YOU USE SARCASM A LOT?
it depends on the sarcasm radar ability of the audience

8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS?
yes

9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?
no

10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL?
tie: frosted mini wheats, peanut butter cap'n crunch

11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
no

12. DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG?
no

13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM?
pralines and cream

14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE?
height -if taller than me (I'm a little tall)
whatever is shiniest

15. RED OR PINK?
red

16. WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF?
girth

17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST?
my girls as babies

18. WHAT IS THE TECHNIQUE THAT YOU NEED TO WORK ON THE MOST?
hair dying

19. WHAT COLOR SHOES ARE YOU WEARING?
blue

20. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
snap pea with dill dip

21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
this exact minute, nothing.  OK Go in CD player in car, christmas music probably still in player in house.

22. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?
black

23. FAVORITE SMELLS?
bread baking, spring (which is really thawing dirt mixed with warm southern air), the smell that floats in the air after a freshly showered girlie walks by, play-doh

24. HOW IMPORTANT ARE YOUR POLITICAL VIEWS TO YOU?
not as important as my political views are to others

25. MOUNTAIN HIDEAWAY OR BEACH HOUSE?
mountain hideaway (never been to a warm beach :( )

26. FAVORITE SPORTS TO WATCH?
tennis - roger, rafa = awe and yumminess

27. HAIR COLOR?
dirty blond (not dirty blonde) with natural gray highlights

28. EYE COLOR?
blue

29. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
no

30. FAVORITE FOOD?
PB&J

31. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS?
happy endings (but prefer indies)

32. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
The Fox and the Hound.  truly. (remember my girls are teens) but I was also doing chores so really the last complete movie was The Hobbit.

33. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?
blue

34. SUMMER OR WINTER?
summer

35. FAVORITE DESSERT?
baker's square pumpkin pie

36. STRENGTH TRAINING OR CARDIO?
I don't understand the question.

37. COMPUTER OR TELEVISION?
TV

38. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING NOW?
a casualty of T1D dx - so for months and months I've been halfway through Think Like a Pancreas, Julia Child My Life in France, two chapters into that latest Evanovich.  just sad.
NEW GOAL:  finish a book, preferably not D related.

39. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
winnie the pooh

40. FAVORITE SOUND?
quiet giggles you know are about to turn inappropriate
Pink singing in the shower

41. FAVORITE GENRE OF MUSIC?
from 80s/90s metal/rock/classic rock, to Prince, musical soundtracks and odds, ends, predictable and secrets 
Trivia:
1.  I got to see a tour of Rent with the original Mark and Roger and Mrs. Jefferson who hits that note in Seasons of Love.
2. I once was so close to Steven Tyler I could touch him.  and I did.

42. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME?
San Fransisco

43. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT?
I can wiggle my ear

44. WHERE WERE YOU BORN?
Iowa

45. WHERE ARE YOU LIVING NOW?
Iowa

46. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR HOUSE?
light gray/blue

47. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR CAR?
blue (jeesh - need to turn my color wheel)

48. DO YOU LIKE ANSWERING 48 QUESTIONS?
I enjoyed the time suckage that was #41.

Your turn.


Thursday, January 3, 2013

Wanna See Something Ugly?


I can't believe I'm posting this.  Real life right?
Pink's blood sugars for the last two weeks:


That's ugly.

Out of nowhere, Pink's insulin needs skyrocket.  Growth spurt, puberty pogo, pancreas kaput...who knows?  (plus I obviously was slacking as the chart above depicts) Last time this happened I ended up increasing Pink's TDD (total daily dose of insulin) by 30% which was about 9-10 units. 
But it took me FOREVER.
Little by little. Chicken by scaredy-cat chicken day.  
I swore to do better, faster next time.

I've been upping basal for the last few days.  Changing them almost across the board at once instead one by one.  Thinking I'm busting a move all over these highs. So why isn't it working?!

basal patterns started here
(basal insulin works day and night to control blood sugar between meals and during sleep)


 and now we are here

PUH-LEASE!
Do the math and that only adds up to 1.25 more units per day so far.
Must do better.


THIS IS NOT MEDICAL ADVICE. 
DO NOT USE OUR METHODS, NUMBERS OR PATTERNS.
GET YOUR OWN...
FROM YOUR MEDICAL TEAM.



Tuesday, January 1, 2013

2012 in pics


spring dance

musical
 
Christina Perri


gilato

d-camp


d-camp


dance recital


pink's pink


16


first day of school

def leppard
gardens


art festivals

blog



tcoyd
 

rainbow dash



boooyyyfriend

cousins - thanksgiving

lego league


christmas blizzard