I watch some of The Walking Dead. Very gory. Repetitive.
Chased by zombies, smash in zombie heads, talk about life with zombies, repeat.
I feel stupid because I didn't figure out she was in the barn the whole time.
The check two hours later yields a 364. Correction through pump.
I briefly think about emptying the dishwasher but finish off The Walking Dead instead.
Another check at 1.5 hours gives up a 341. I should probably change the site but the last time I changed a site in the night Pink didn't move a muscle but her eyes POPPED open. Like a close up shot of the villain of a suspense flick whose eyes fly open at the last second to let you know he lives to do evil another day. Or like Bella. I decide to give an injection and add a half unit. Pink has fallen asleep in her jeans so I fish down her pants to her leg site and fumble blindly to unhook her site. Sites that are not parent friendly. I hang the tube off the side of the bed and bolus the carpet so the pump will continue to keep track of the insulin on board.
I double check the syringe for the correct amount. It's 2:30am. I triple check.
Walking down the hall with the loaded syringe I hope I don't trip and impale myself with a syringe holding 2 units of insulin. I check for ketones and think how friendly the ketone meter is to beep at me when it has enough blood. No ketones. I dig back into her jeans to make sure I connected to the current site and not an old one she still might have hanging out in there.
I debate whether I should catch an hour of sleep or just stay awake. Awake is safer.
I pass the time by starting this post and spend several minutes trying to figure out how to spell "yield". Yeld...yeald...yeild...does not compute. Maybe awake is not safer.
It's 4:30 and the dog looks at me for a solid minute trying to determine if it's potty time or not. Not.
342. Dammit all to hell. Site change. Grumpy Pink. Temp basal. Cancel temp basal because I moved the site to her tummy and she usually gets zippity-do-dah insulin action at the start of a tummy site and I need to lay down and am scared I won't wake up to check.
When will I learn that numbers that high in Pink need aggression?! I could have had this knocked down by now. 300s all freaking night. Poor baby girl. I hate nights like this but I won't be defeated. Good
4:30 is sort of a magical time, isn't it? by then i know i'm bonkers, and am 100% sure, no doubt about it, that i'm up way way way past my/anyone's bedtime. 2 or 3 o'clock someone might be up late just having fun at a party. 4:30 is sincerely effed up.
ReplyDeletei love reading your posts. and they're not just entertaining/emotional supportive. i always learn something. this time: a temp basal can be >100%. cool. thanks!
Hop you get a nap or whatever you like for a break.
It is magical! I can be totally bonkers or totally euphoric thinking I don't need sleep at all. Got some naps and good thing because still fighting. Only saw one number in the 100s today.
DeleteI hate stubborn highs. Especially at night. Although they also suck during the day. I pretty much hate them day or night. Hope you get to take a nap and hope the wake-up number made it all worth it!
ReplyDeleteWell said!
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