As a parent of a child(ren) with diabetes have you ever actually timed and counted the swings of your emotions in a day? Just this evening:
6:00 spent - home from work
6:01 glad - see Pink's sweet face coming to greet me
6:02 concern - funny look on her face and she informs me she just treated a 58
6:05 alert - cuddled on couch waiting out the low
6:08 disgusted - no supper, no nothing done before I got home
6:09 empathy - Pink feels very bad and survival hunger kicks in
6:10 irritated - Pink developing major attitude with lows and highs
6:20 relief - Pink coming up and happily shoveling food
6:25 worry - Roo leaving to drive to school and musical practice with lots of dancing
6:30 disappointed - baseball on instead of Big Bang
6:31 numb - computer time and mundane household stuff
7:30 surprised - Pink remembers to take shower without reminder (Haaa-lle-lu-jah!)
8:30 slight alert - Pink not out of shower yet but have not heard loud thud of wet, limp body hitting shower floor
8:31 JOY - Pink singing in shower (I experience equal joy hearing littles singing on the potty)
8:40 happy - Roo home a little early - no problems
8:45 amused - Pink cuts her eyes at me as she goes to get her forgotten pump after I ask if anyone needs an insulin refill
8:46 heartbreak - a flash of their futures never, ever away from insulin sneaks in
9:00 miffed - Roo needs more money for two more freakin' school something-or-nothing t-shirts.
9:10 tickled - Roo's ooo and ahh at the sparkly dresses on Project Runway. She's such a foo-foo girl.
9:30 wasted - still have to test BGs and make plans for the night...UGH and pack a cooler for Roo's away football game tomorrow.
That would explain the urge to hide under my blankets sucking my thumb.
But then I would miss the singing!